December 2011
88 posts
{realization}
I just realized that I am my own worst enemy. And when I sit at home alone for too long I immediately become a heavily depressed and brooding maniac. And I feel infinitely better when I’m out with friends, whether it’s lunch,drinks or dinner. It just brightens me. As long as I’m doing these things with people I like and love of course. And I was also thinking maybe part of the...
“i hate it when people deem me the most angry person they’ve ever met just...”
– me
{reunion}
i am a person who likes to 怀旧
i like some things unchanged…because it brings me this nostalgic feel, brings me warmth…brings back memories…
people from roedean…they seem unchanged to me…i’m not talking about their ever-changing lives…i’m talking about their humorous, relaxed and down-to-earth nature…
each time going out for drinks with old...
{carefree vs burdensome}
a look at my dash…
everyone’s posting happy pics of family, of food, of friends, of holidays…
and a look at my own page…
heavy reflections…more angry rants…
goddamit…why do i feel so heavy all the effing time?!!
it’s the festive season for goodness sake
i’m in a slump and i want to get out of it…
{seriously}
I don’t chase after people. I just don’t. So don’t ever expect me to chase after you. Hate it when people give me this must-be-begged-in-order-to-say-yes, offish attitude. I just move straight on.
{as another year ends}
days are moving freakishly fast…
where did 2011 go?
it’s as if it was yesterday that Li, Cath, Shadi and I were standing in front of the “time for a fresh start” sign, cursing the wreck of a year that is 2010, and dreaming of a bright 2011, which really was not that bright…
i don’t have that feeling right now. that feeling of hope and excitement that come...
Reblog if there's no snow for Christmas where you...
{not being snobby}
this isn’t some elitist statement…
but i’ve just realized that there’s a huge gap between me and people that i used to know…
their language, their thoughts, their lives are just so different from mine…
i just don’t see myself wanting to hang out with them anymore…
{worth}
some things are worth fighting for
worth putting into effort
worth it because of its being a miracle…
worth it because of its immeasurable value…
we are worth my everything…
<3
{so bummed}
worked really hard for finance, thought i had a chance but the cit sender thinks otherwise…
and today, while doing stat practice exams, i thought i was slowly getting stat….nope…not a chance against the 15 page final that i did not finish and that was half full of my BS…
another evening of feeling discouraged…and inadequate…
and hating myself for wasting time...
